.jpg)
In my 9 years of acupuncture practice, I’ve only called in sick/canceled patients for illness two times. The first time was 5 or so years ago when my back went out. I won’t say that I “threw it out” because I truthfully have no idea what happened or how I even contributed to that sudden crazy spasm, but it was too painful to do much for a few days afterwards, and there was no way I could ethically (or actually) see my scheduled patients.
When I called the first person to cancel, I apologized sincerely. I was a little tense/worried about how they might respond. I take my commitments seriously and I told this person so. I also let them know that this was my first cancellation in five-years time.
They replied with something like, “Wow, I’m your first? That’s so cool. What an honor.” This response offered me the unexpected gift of being cared for as I also cared for them by rescheduling to a time that I was truly able to be present and to show up.
My second cancellation with a client was a week or so ago, and, again, I found that the person I rescheduled with was so gracious and receptive and kind.
Sometimes we’re scared about disappointing those around us, so we push through and “make it work.” Or maybe we keep repeating patterns or habits or actions that aren’t really serving us or those around us, but we feel we must continue nonetheless.
It’s important that we allow ourselves to evaluate our needs and then to be open when something isn’t working or when things feel slightly “off.” This allows us to open ourselves up to the possibility that the people around us will respond with compassion and that we might even receive some unexpected care as we care for those around us by being honest about what we need.
When we aren’t honest with others, we often create more problems. Maybe we do things we don’t want to do or aren’t up for. Maybe we think we can push through and deliver, but then show up as a less-than-stellar version of ourselves.
These perhaps well-intended but misguided efforts can create confusion and doubt. Both for ourselves and for those around us.
Spring is all about rebirth and the process of learning, and even relearning, who we are and how we want to live. Take some time to sit with yourself and ask yourself what is and isn’t working in your life.
Is there something you can restructure or reconsider to help you reclaim space for yourself, in service of others?
This is an excellent time to plant seeds and then be willing to observe and be honest about what sprouts and what feels like a dud.
Don’t be afraid to lean into your needs this Spring. When you’re living from within your own integration, that integrity will encourage others as well.